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November 28, 2012


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I've always been a little jealous of the attention that people around here receive. Example, :icontishadster:. Tons of online pals who feature him in pictures and comics and whatever else. I admittedly feel left behind, just the girlfriend, you know? My portrayal in some of his videos doesn't help much either, as I'm depicted as either the damsel in distress or the silent observer. No offense, love, but you know I'm more than that.

But at the same time...I feel awkward getting out there. My skill range isn't the same as lots of the folks on here. I know for a fact that if I practiced and worked really hard, I could get just as good as them...but I'm not sure if I really want to either. A little more fame would be nice, just to get recognized as more than just an associated person. And yet there are a number of downsides that come with it; downsides I don't know if I could deal with.

Demand for one thing. Everybody will start vying for your attention and time, and eventually you'll get buried beneath it all. I'm already buried as it is, and my track record for returning attention is not great.

You'd probably suddenly find yourself as a figure-head or a role-model. Not sure if I could handle that, as I tend to behave mildly bipolar. Don't need more of that running around. There's a certain level of self-control needed, and I don't think I have it. Granted, I think a lot of popular people are missing it, but that's beside the point.

Criticism. Good god, the criticism. A select few can handle it well, and I'm not one of them. Now I don't mean comments like "You're technique is a little off on this; you should blah-blah-blah to fix this problem." I'm talking the moronic type of criticism. The kind that is out of left field, uncalled for, and more often than not completely pointless. I know I love to dispense the advice on how to deal with it, but I'm the worst one to follow it.

Popularity does have some sweet perks though. People know you, and we all like to be known. You get a nice support group, though I'd probably always be paranoid about them turning on me. No offense to the support group I already have, but I've noticed a rather catty trend around here lately. But most of wouldn't feel left behind or forgotten as often...I think that's the biggest thing for me right now...

I don't know if I want fame or popularity. Not a lot of it, at least. Recognition would be nice, more true friends are always welcome. I just don't know if I want the responsibility that comes with it.

This has been Musings with Wolfy. Maybe I'll make this a regular thing, maybe not. I have a lot I'd like to chat about all across the spectrum. Just kinda depends on what mood I'm in.

Off topic note: Anyone who enjoys old style table-top RPs and has Steam should look into getting Legend of Grimrock. I got it due to a recent sale, and I love it. It plays like your standard grid RP, the dungeons mapped out and you move square by square. It's got some good puzzles, good enemies, and I love that you get to design your team. The only downside is that there's no multiplayer. That would've been great. Still, it's a nice little trip down memory lane, and the Steam Workshop has plenty of other maps for when you finish the main game.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Wreck-It Ralph Soundtrack
  • Reading: Skulduggery Pleasant
  • Watching: Rifftrax
  • Playing: Legend of Grimrock
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Arthuurs Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2012
Hmmm yeah, he doesnt realy show you off alot that much or almost at all....but himself... oh yeah totaly opposite, thats true. But what do you mean try and be as good as others? You did mention painting and plenty more before... Demand? nah, if nothing exiting that happens with Shadow, instead of you, then there will always be no demanding at all, some may show up, and so? Not a deal to be big about. Criticism? Hmm ive seen alot around and id say... well sure, if you draw, then youl get it, but its part of what you do, you listen to people because you want to share with people, so they tell you bunch of stuff... i agree, if they ask something, you may feel bad if you dont realy want to do what they suggest, try and change your style.... sure that be realy baddening.... still, you need to be sure, youre looking out for them as ready and accecpting as you are, and i do know, you can realy handle things, youre very capable and strong to your goals and other things after all. Recognition? Soo.... not alot of people come to you... but you wish to get some kind words... am i right? Yeah.... you have told me that alot... something similar... yes... well, im sorry if this is happening for too long already, ive noticed that :(. Well.... what are your plans? Do you want to do something and can you do something you want? Are you ready to give a little effort and not give up on a task? What do you realy want to do now and what do you realy want to get now? On your last note, a old style game? And you like it? Well very good then for now :) and yeha, to bad about the non existing multiplayer. If you ask me, most games would need it, altough GameSpy showed me the opposite of that and 13 games that should have never had multiplayer, it only made it worse and not so worth it to have included... and im sad that Dead Space 2 multiplayer was one of them :( they showed me the ugly. ugly truth :(...... the only few gameplay modes, and maps are just too tiny content :( darn..........
Noobmister Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2012
Here's some advice; don't do it because you want the attention, instead do it because you enjoy doing it. The skill takes time, but the more you do it, the better you get. Also, the more stuff you do, the more attention you'll get, but it'll come in small chunks rather than all at once, so it's easy to manage ;)
WolfSpirit07 Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2012
I think I already told this to someone else. I'm not really complaining or looking for attention. It's just a musing, a train of thought. Sometimes I get seized with odd thoughts and just want to chat about them.
Hero361 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
I feel exactly the same way right now
Legoguy9875 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Believe me, I had the same feeling when I was starting out.

Honestly, I don't expect to be SO popular that I make cameos in other people's work. So long as people like what I do, I'm happy with it :)

And seriously, I would love to use you in anything I make if I had the oppurtunity to. Oh wait, I just remembered that I still have your old pony model :iconshrugplz:
Miel1994 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student Artist
If ya can pass on your TFsona (I'm not such a big fan of HL2 models ^^'), I can give you a cameo :3
NickTheBronyMau5 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student General Artist
sometimes i want to be featured in gmod arts/comics. i can imagine.:)
fatman380 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
so your saying that you want more attention. but you dont want attention?
WolfSpirit07 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
Sort of. And hence the conundrum. I want attention without the cons of said attention. Of course, that only exists in the ideal world, and this is far from ideal.
fatman380 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
that I can agree with
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